The Enlightened Mom

It’s been two months since I wrote my last blog. If you’ll remember, I shared that my angelic guides were asking me to set everything down…to decompress during the holidays. I had been dealing with vertigo and they told me it was time to take a rest. So I did. Well, what I now know is that they were preparing me for what lay ahead. I'll share a little here. It's rather an interesting story, especially when you read the miracle that happened towards the end.

Two years ago I was diagnosed with a brain abnormality called Chiari Malformation I. This is where the bottom of the brain called the tonsil of the brain juts too far down into the cervical spine cutting off the flow of spinal fluid. You can be born with this or it can occur due to trauma. I've had five whiplashes over the last 15 years so I'm guessing that this is where it began for me. Some of the symptoms associated with Chiari Malformation I are extreme vertigo, mental fog, migraines, aches and pains in the body, loss of use of your appendages, trouble swallowing that can lead to choking, loss of vision that can lead to blindness, loss of hearing, etc., you get it. If the disease progresses, it can be rather extreme. People often chase doctors for years trying to figure out what is wrong with them. I did. I was tested for MS, lupus and finally the doctors said I had beginning stages of fibromyalgia. I knew they were wrong. It turns out that with Chiari, this is what often happens.

For the last several months I’ve felt a need to set everything down in my life. I was being called to just let go and let God take over. However, my ego had other ideas. With the holidays coming, I saw other businesses, healers and teachers gearing up with holiday promotions. I battled an inner struggle to gear up too, selling my products like everyone else was doing. My guidance said, “No, Terri. It is not necessary. What is right for everyone else is not right for you.” However, my ego said, “You have to survive, Terri! You must compete in this rush-rush world!” It was like an ugly little monster grabbing me by the neck and at times literally driving me nuts, pushing me to step into the madness. Until this morning.

As I sat in meditation today, I had a vision and felt the archangel Michael lift me up in his wings and put me down on the bed. I felt him kiss me on my head as he said, “Rest Terri. We’ll take care of everything.” That’s when I knew it was time to listen.

I cringed yesterday as I sat in a hospital recovery room with Erly. She is in her late 60’s and has lived with me for almost 20 years. I cringed because I saw the nurses pull a tube from Erly’s leg and then work tirelessly for almost 30 minutes trying to get her bleeding to stop. I’m a little bit of a wuss when it comes to hospitals, and the idea of watching the nurse remove a tube that looked to be at least two feet long from Erly’s groin was not my idea of fun. And let’s not even talk about the idea of blood! The only reason I saw this was because I had accidentally moved my hand from my face! I am indeed a wuss!

For the last week-and-a-half Erly has been in the hospital three times. She’s been struggling with her heart. I was on my way home after three weeks of being on the road when I received a call from the paramedics. They said Erly had blacked out at work.